long way down

i must remove my fixation on 'the impossible' before 'it' kills me.

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i am going to quit spending money soon.

i am going to cut myself off the internet (and all computer use) soon, if possible, for as long as possible.

i am going to reduce my collection of music to the essentials soon. this will primarily consist of music i have purchased.

i am going to reduce the frequency of illegal substance consumption soon, and only engage in such activity when it is necessary and inexpensive.

i am going to attempt to reshape myself mentally, violently.

i am going to begin reading again.

i am going to cease involving myself in interpersonal politics.

i am going to be horridly behind.

i may shave my head.

i may wear only white and blue clothing; no logos, no words, 2 pockets per pair of pants, black leather belt, New Balance sandals with socks in summer, black rubber boots in winter.

i will become a simple person.

i need to quit assuming.

i need to quit worrying about identity. this will enable me to move on with my life, and escape the pop-culture i so greatly fear.

i will continue to play the occasional video game.

i will continue to play musical instruments.

i will visit my family on holidays.

i will no longer eat meat, where possible; i will not feel guilty when i must.

i will no longer consume refined sugar, where possible.

i will no longer engage in any activity that may lead to orga