rehash. mash. mash.

i am at a loss. i am always at this loss. i ache. i experience heartburn on a daily basis, independant of diet. heartache, i guess they call it. it is a burning sensation. i guess that means PASSION is involved in some.. sick.. fuck.

i ache to make much of my life, and of the lives of those around me. i feel like.. the center ring of a tree.. a tube, pushing upwards and out.. involved in.. growth. expansion. at first i carried with me the most imediate bark surroundings.